hope for peace again
sorry
how sorry it is
in a single breath
I have allowed such ugliness
to creep in....
deserving is a lofty notion
I was arrogant to believe
I am he
the able body
to bring to her
every security she
could possibly need...
I hold dear affectionately
the thought of her
esteem her
and cherish her
every word and gasp for air...
Yet deserving of her
I can't say in truth
that I do....
I doubted it from the
start and now I have
confirmed it with
such a thoughtless
word spoken.
The pain is like none other.
Physical pain is tolerable
and medicated..
Emotions, imagination, the hurt
caused on another
This is the pain that can't be
escaped. The more I attempt
to forgive myself the more I
feel the loss of that which
has changed my life...
So, Jim what is next?
Where does it end and when
will there be peace?
Tired
Tired again of hearing
of your pitiful mistakes
and wasted efforts
when in a second you destroy
the most precious of gifts
Forgive: to cease to feel
resentment against.
I will never forgive myself
should this meeting be just
fling...
It came without effort
feels like a day when
from the moment you wake
everything in your path is
in line
There is peace
There is hope in an entire
life yet to live
There is planning and names
to choose
There are folks to meet
and beautiful places we will see.
There is too much to lose
Letting go of greatness is
not my desire nor is the end coming
all too soon.
I apologize for the lack
of rhythm in these words
I am not of my right mind
this eve and hope for
peace again...
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