Locked away
My mind was unable to assimilate, unable to contain
all those thoughts and images burned so effectively in
So I packed them all
even as they swarmed over me
And carried them down step by step
they dragged me down step
by step
Down into the deepest corner of my dungeon
the blackest lonliest part of my fortress
and shoved them all inside
slammed the door
turned the key
turned my back
set my mind free
and walked away
Somewhere
sometime
I lost the key
it fell to earth, down the well
made it's way into some other locked room
let it slip from my grasp
sometimes they escape, those pieces of me
fly to clasp to me
invading my living soul
And I am stuck sitting in that darkest corner
trying to feed them back under the door
listening to the pounding storm of child-me
on the other side
begging for release
in her tricky innocent voice
asking to be part of me, but I know
she brings the nightmares with her
some escape to the tower, fly out the window
lost on the winds
gone and never coming back
some find their way to the dungeon unasked
cower in the blackness
lost to the sun
But when I started the process
of elimination
I trained something wrong
the mistakes of a child
not to draw the line between what should be kept
and what should be buried away
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