Purposely Hidden
Y do I keep feeling this
the feeling-goo I mean
I keep thinking I've got it all under control
wrapped up nicely and gone
and then a little squish happens and I start to realize
it was still there
I was just doing a damn good job of ignoring it
which makes me wonder about myself
how many times have I purposely stayed blissfully ignorant
and unaware of my own feelings
ignoring what is around me
so it can't touch me
yet another defense mechanism hard-wired into my being
Keep the winds at bay so I cannot discern which way they blow
whether death, pain, or love
it all goes thru the same filter of non-feeling
twisted away at the other end and buried deep where it never comes to light
not if I can help it
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