Almost..........
I am almost there again
I tried sooo hard
So Hard
to give in to you
to give up myself for you
to let go all the fear and anger
to let myself feel
because you pushed so hard to take it from me, the anger and pain
you pushed into my mind, stretching for my soul
and I tried not to recoil from your touch
I tried to hold out my arms to catch you up
Because it was what you wanted
I can only give for so long
taking nothing in trade
I can only burn so long before I snuff out
with no fuel to keep me there
And as the flame dies down
all the feeling drips away
running out, away from you
You're losing me - after all your hard work
And you can't even take the time to look and notice
And I'm starting not to care
I have no energy or desire left for trying
Your complacent ineptitude is letting it die all away
But - Why?
Why did you chisel at my walls
why did you stretch so far for so long
all that work for nothing
I just will never understand
and now nothing is all I'm starting to feel again.
Those walls don't stay down on their own you know
they've been cultivated into a life all their own
and they grow every time I am made to feel
every time I'm forced into the world, and slapped away again
every time you blow me off
or tell me you don't have time
or forget your promises to me
Soon they'll be rock hard again
and you'll be on the outside
while I lose myself inside where feelings are not
and the cold enwraps my soul to keep it warm
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